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Afraid to Feel
I was scared to grieve… Because grief felt like an unwelcome interruption into the joy I wanted to feel. Because I was worried that I’d sink so low into despair that I couldn’t be reached and pulled out. Because I feared that grief would push me so far under that I’d be unable to catch… Continue reading
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Happy Birthday to …
This is … odd, uncomfortable, heartbreaking. Today is used to be your birthday. Now, I guess it’s simply your birthdate. That feels so hollow, but celebration also feels too far outside my comfort zone right now. I wasn’t really sure how I’d handle this first birthday of yours, without you. But then I looked upon… Continue reading
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On Schedule
I schedule my blog posts. If you’ve been living under the illusion that I have been creating week-of content for your consumption, I am so sorry to disappoint you. It’s just that in this season of life the pre-scheduled post makes so much more sense. I write as inspired (which is generally late at night),… Continue reading
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Writing Under Pressure
Hey Y’all! I am (slowly) transitioning from my platform here on WordPress to a new platform- Substack. This is not a decision I took lightly. I have built quite a community and following on WordPress over the last 14 years and I highly value the space WordPress offered me to share some of the most… Continue reading
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Because He is, I am
I did this exercise with my oldest a few weeks ago to help him make connections between who God is, and therefore who we’ve been empowered to be. We looked at attributes of God and His character and then He picked out 3 that really resonated with who He knows God to be to Him.… Continue reading
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I Need to Hear from You
Lord, I need a word… but I failed to acknowledge you when my eyes opened this morning. I opted to begin my day with social media scrolling and “relaxing” music that in no way referenced or reflected who you are. Lord, I need word… but I set down my Bible to pick up the television… Continue reading
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Surely, Goodness and Mercy
(Psalm 23:6) Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever (NLT). 25 years after I was originally baptized, I once again went under the water. It was an incredibly special moment, as I was baptized alongside my… Continue reading
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In the Morning
“Ain’t no need in worrying, What the night is gonna bring, Cause it’ll be all over in the morning.” Bonus points to you if you know what song those lyrics come from. All my 90’s gospel kids unite! I’m tickled by how many of the songs from my youth seem to come around full circle… Continue reading
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Fighting Back
He tried to distract me. Instead, I went deeper in my time with God. He tried to discourage me. Instead, I affirmed myself with the truth of God’s word. He tried to discredit me. Instead, I thwarted shame with God’s merciful grace. He tried, and he tried, and he tried- But he failed. Because this… Continue reading
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I Lie Awake At Night
Nights have been hard for me. I’m fatigued, in body, mind, and spirit and yet sleep doesn’t overtake me when my body hits the bed or when my head hits the pillow. I lie awake at night- Yearning for sleep but there’s something there that won’t let me claim it. A hesitance, or maybe a… Continue reading
Writing Under Pressure 